I feel so sleepy but I did have a cute day today. I had a wonderful time with my friends and we played offline. Not everything has to be streamed cause some moment are just between friends.
I drank a whole bottle it wasn't super big but still ugh my tummy!!
I hope you all miss me streaming I know this week I took it pretty easy. I know I am not the most consistent streamer. I don't do it for income just for fun. I think I would be stressed out if it were work.
There is pressure when you put yourself out there for people. They can judge you how lever they see fit. I know people judge me and it sucks. I doesn't feel nice when people just talk about me or my irl body.
I remember once I raided someone and all they told their chat was I had big boobs. I was a little hurt by that one. I don't visit much their stream. But I like their stuff cause I really wanted to be friends. I just knew they have no interest.
People are like that to me. I am just some bimbo to them. They don't know me or the painful things that have happened to me. I cry so much all the time for things that have happened to me. I probably will the rest of my life.
Blarhhhsjf jk eidnwodb. Okay I am drinkish I can't start talking sad. Or I'll get sad.
I l9ve the people who care and want me around and like me for me. All my bad and good and everything in between. I trust only a few people and I think I have to keep it that way.
I do wish I had all these fri4nds but I think that would hurt me more when they didn't talk to me anymore. Or pushed me out of things. It blows being a vtuber sometimes but I have joy when I hang out with my fri4nds.
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